I was laying in bed and I realized I have not seen my granddaughter in five months. Despite every effort made, plans made, plans canceled, I have not seen my granddaughter in five months. This should have not been allowed to happen. God, I have been a fool. What person hangs around waiting for five months? Me. I have been doing this thing called waiting, asking, hoping, expecting, planning, and for what? I have not seen her in five months. Adults make decisions and those decisions suck. I can't give up. I won't give up. Ava, I love you.