Hold On Let Go

I feel like if I let the tears go I will not be able to stop them. I have been keeping them back all night. On the way back from his house we stopped at a pub for dinner and two tears rolled down my face. Immediately, I held them back, took out my I-Phone and began playing a card game. I have learned to change my thoughts by games, books and music. I do a lot of each every day especially when the work-day has ended and the weekend is upon me.

I miss the black cat. I felt sad when we drove by the vet. I am going to take care of the other cat when he leaves.

Full moon tonight. I wonder if it is impacting my mood? I believe in nonsense like that. The moon was incredible as it rose into the night sky. Full. Bright. Abnormally large. A Halloween moon. I heard she is going to a Pumpkin Patch tomorrow. It will be a nice sunny 60's weather day. If I could, I would head up the mountains. I can't so I won't. I would really like a hot tub or massage for my neck. It is 8 days of headaches. I wonder when they will end. I have had headaches my entire life. When they start, they can go on and on for days and the pain scale can be extremely high.

As a club member, there is an appreciation weekend with special rates for the weekend of November 1st and 2nd. I am debating whether or not to take advantage of that. Truth be told, I do not need a special rated weekend to escape the chaos of life. I am pretty good about taking them and skipping up the mountains or west to Gettysburg. I like my downtime.

Cat Cat 7/2010 to 10/2013

He passed away overnight. My heart is broken. I know he is a cat but he was a special cat. Sweet and Funny, Cuddly and Loyal.

He was born in July 2010 and we adopted him and his brother in October of 2010. He was the healthier of the two as his brother had eye and ear issues. He had a cute personality and forever felt the need to sleep wrapped around my head at night.

 They were adopted for my granddaughter and though she loved them both she favored Cat Cat (her name for him) because he would allow her to pick him up and carry him around. Shark Shark (her name for him) would never allow her to do that.

We are going to miss him.

Daily Living

Six hundred dollars poorer. A late night emergency Vet visit. A three year old cat with a blocked urethra. Let's hope the emergency procedure worked to unblock the urethra. I cannot believe I cried over the cat last night. Oh yes I can. I am a softy.

I think I am going to have to call my doctor tomorrow and make an appointment. My head still hurts and it has been several days of headaches.

I am on chapter five of the audio book.

I ordered another book last night before the cat episode.

More rain.

I am not permitted to talk about her but I will say yesterday was wonderful.

The weather is changing evident by flocks of geese flying in formation.

No more nightly summer sounds of crickets.