Miss my grandmother today as it is the anniversary of her death. She left us on July 30, 1990. I have a huge void inside that I cannot fill. What she had, I should have. I loved and lost. Sometimes the pain is so deep, I am afraid of it. I came across this old picture and it brought back memories of me sitting on her front steps in the summer.

The Charles truck = pretzels, chips and sometimes that special box of cookies. My uncles would buy from the truck and I would sit on those marble front steps with a cookie in one hand and a pretzel in the other. Grandmom was always there beside me. We spent most summer nights on those steps. I was a little girl. It was a time when life was simple, happy and carefree. I always wanted a daughter and I was blessed with sons. I always wanted a granddaughter and after two grandsons, I was blessed with one. I loved her. I always will love her. But, I lost her. This is a void, I will never fill.

Christopher's First Birthday

 My favorite girls.

 Nicole and Mom

 Dad and I

 Joseph

 Ham Bone Matt

 John and his Mom (my sister in law)

Greg and his Mom (my sister)

 Bill with the birthday boy

 Cousins and siblings

 He is ready.

 Bring the cake on!

Happy Birthday!

 Chris with his big brother, Collin

 Kiddie Land

 Grace is a hoot.

Dad, Ron, Marianne, Me

Mom and Dad's Shore House

 Dad's oasis creation.

BBQ at John and Eileen's Shore House

 SUPER MARGE, THE ACTION HERO!

 Never put a bunch of 50 somethings in one hot tub who have known each other for 35 years.