ENOUGH

The Amish society follows a strict set of rules which are ingrained in their offspring as soon as they begin to crawl. If you are Amish, you fear being shunned. To be shunned by your own is the worse thing that can occur in their community. Worse than death.

Let's talk about the English. The Amish refer to "others" as "the English". The English are suppose to be more educated, sophisticated, worldly and recognize people are created equal as so the Constitution states.

Let's be truthful here. At least the Amish know where they stand. You get shunned. You know you are shunned. They have the balls to spell it out. You know exactly where you stand in that community. Cannot say the same for the English. They shun but lack the balls. They are cunning, deceitful, sneaky, shun the person behind their back, but never directly in their face. He said. She said. Denial. Lies. Sugar coating bullshit. I support you , but I really do not support you. It really depends to whom I may be speaking to. So called friends. So called family. The dishonesty is drowning. Hey, life is difficult enough, so why even go that route. Oh! Wait! I know why! You lack courage or in layman street terms, BALLS!

I'd surrender so that I may have that life which I once lived. I was dealt a deck of cards which I avoided playing because I believed in others. I trusted others. I thought others cared. Now, I know the truth and I will play the cards I have been dealt. However, I have my own set of rules. I would rather be a recluse than to hear another person say that they are supportive and truly care when in fact they are deceitful, not only to others but most importantly to self.

My eyes have been shut. My eyes are now wide opened. I do not want you in my life. I rather wander the earth alone than to have people lie. You have your favorites. You say the words the person in front of you at that time wants to hear. You pretend you and yours are perfect. You never look within but without. You can continue to fool others but you will never fool me again. I may not say it LOUD and CLEAR, but make no mistake about it. I know who you really are and know the others like you.

No one needs to wrap their pretty little false heads around my situation. If you cannot be part of the solution than do not be part of the problem. I do not want you here.

If the shoe fits, wear it. Or shove it squarely up your ass. It matters not to me.

Thank you for listening and please do come back again to see what I am up to.